Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Shut Up! Just Shut Up!

Today I read this quote from Zelda, the daughter of Robin Williams regarding social media, "I will be leaving this account for a [bit] while I heal and decide if I'll be deleting it or not," she writes. "In this difficult time, please try to be respectful of the accounts of myself, my family and my friends. Mining our accounts for photos of dad, or judging me on the number of them is cruel and unnecessary. There are a couple throughout, but the real private moments I shared with him were precious, quiet, and believe it or not, not full of photos or 'selfies.' "

 On Monday, my heart was hurting for a family that I know, because the patriarch of their family had died.  Then later on that day I found out about the death of Robin Williams and I prayed for his family as well.  Losing my own father in 2012 has made me extra sensitive to those who lose their own.  With that said I would never try to compare my grief to their grief.  A dear friend of mine, who I  called to vent after someone had made hurtful remarks about the loss of my daddy, wisely stated that you can't compare grief, grief is different for everyone.  For example, I have two brothers and we have handled our grief differently and we lost the same dad.  But we each had an unique relationship with him.

In my situation I was grateful for social media during that time, because I could pass along info without having to talk to a lot of people.  Weeks after the funeral I would go out to eat by myself to parts of the Metro that I didn't know anyone, so I didn't have to talk to anyone.  Don't get me wrong I spoke to those nearest to me, but there were days that being asked how I was doing was annoying.  How was I doing????  It had felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest.  I was dealing with mean & hurtful words from people because I didn't grieve "publicly" enough.  I put it in quotes because I'm not famous.  God knows how much I grieved and how much I still grieve.  Last night I was watching a tribute to Robin Williams and they showed this side angle of him somewhere and he was wearing a baseball cap, he had a grey gotee and something about it made a picture of my dad flash in my head and my breath caught.  With that said I am very grateful that I had heard some talk of Beth Moore's about how she had full freedom to tattle tale to God about things people say to her.  He and my close friends got an ear full.  Why anyone stays friends with me is beyond me.

I am so grateful that my dad was not a celebrity.  I don't know if I would've had enough restraint to just respond with taking a break from social media.  I probably would've taken a baseball bat to my computer, after seeing some of the things Zelda saw on social media.  I probably would've also taken the baseball bat to my phone, tablet, the TV, the radio in my get the point.

An area in my life that I have been praying for growth is empathy.  I don't know everything someone else has gone through.  It is impossible and I guess that is why I get so mad, when I hear people judging and tearing apart others because in their mind they would've handled things differently.  You don't know that!  See I'm struggling with the being patient with judgers (totally made up word) part of this whole growth process.

Why is it so hard for us to love others where they are at?

Sunday, January 5, 2014

This Is What Happened In My Kitchen

Hello 2014!

Here is a fact about me, I love recipes!  Love them!  I love reading them, even if I know I will never follow them.  I am very excited about some of the cooking that took place in my kitchen and I decided to share these happenings with six

First up is Olive Oil Mayo.  When I first attempted the Whole30, I only made this mayo as a basis for an avocado sauce.  Oh how I was so naive, so blind.  Hold up I know you might be thinking like I did, I don't use that much mayo regularly why would I use it in the Whole30????  Because it is more of a sauce than just mayo!  I love to make a Pale, Whole30 compliant pumpkin sausage soup and put a small dollop of Olive Oil Mayo on my serving....delish!  It adds a lovely hint of creamy lemon flavor that rocks my world.  I have had some fun experimenting with this mayo to figure what works and what doesn't.  I will say it is lovely in a traditional sense to make coleslaw & cucumber salad.  I will note that I use a pasteurized egg because I am married to a health inspector and every time I eat something that may have a raw egg in it or runny yolk, he asks me, "Why do you want Salmonella?!?!?!"  For the record I am not living life on the edge with every bite of food thinking, will this be the day I get Salmonella?

Second, Blueberry Breakfast Sausage, I know the title sounds scary, but it is in fact yummy and Whole30 approved!  I have one go to sausage recipe I have used A LOT!  But, I was looking for breakfast items for my hubby & I and I came across this Blueberry Breakfast Sausage paired with a Coconut Carrot Souffle.  I have not made the souffle yet, because vanilla bean is super duper expense at the one grocery store I could find it at.  Thank you Internet for helping me find Beanilla, who was having a great sale & my vanilla beans should be here very soon.  I'm not sure how the snow will affect their delivery time.

Sorry, back to the sausage!  I had gone to the store, bought the ingredients and was excited about trying a new recipe.  Then my husband & I had dinner with some friends where he mentions that he isn't a big fan of anything blueberry!!!!  I decided to make it anyway to see if he would even notice the blueberry.  He loves this sausage recipe!!!  Why?  Because it rocks the house!

Third, Silky Gingered Zucchini Soup.  Actually that is not true!  I made chicken broth so I could make this soup.  I have searched far & wide for chicken broth/stock & beef broth/stock that doesn't contain sugar.  Oh my word is it exhausting and aggravating!  I did find a beef broth at Whole Foods, but it is at Whole Foods.  I am rarely in Kansas.  Sorry, I just can't believe how much stuff has sugar in it!  HyVee had whole chickens on sale for $0.88 a pound.  I bought one and made some broth and I was able to use the chicken meat to make the next recipe....don't scroll down and ruin the surprise...just kidding.  I would've totally scrolled down.  The soup is lovely.  As a matter of fact we had it for breakfast with a side of Blueberry Breakfast Sausage for breakfast yesterday and today. 

Fourth, (I would say last, but I have a pork roast that I'm planning on putting in the oven soon) Buffalo Chicken Shepherd's Pie.  I realized that after I put this in the oven that I only used half of the amount of cauliflower called for.  This did not bother me because I love spices & flavor explosions.  This didn't bother my man because he despises cauliflower & the cauliflower taste was hardly detectable.  I love this dish.  I can't wait to make it again.  I love spicy food & did not need to add hot sauce to this dish.  Oh I almost forgot I did not use buffalo sauce, I substituted Louisiana Hot Sauce.

I will apologize for the fact that there aren't pictures of the food I made on this post.  I am really bad about taking pictures of food I cook.  I love sharing pictures of food others cook or I eat out.  I guess I'm just weird that way.  Try these recipes they are yummy!!!!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

A More Disciplined Life? Day 1

I am linking up with Hello Mornings and going through the book 21 Days to a More Disciplined Life by Crystal Paine.  The title of the book pretty much sums up the goal.  On Day 1, we are given an assignment to pick one Mega Project that we are going to tackle over the 21 days.  We are to work on our Mega Project everyday.  Well my Mega Project is the wedding.  It is 30 days away and I still have loads to do.  I keep telling myself I have plenty of time and that my dear friends is a lie.  I am hoping that I am not in over my head.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

You see what happened was...

Friday night my sweet man and I went out for a date to celebrate six months engaged & eight months dating.  Well due to the Whole30 our restaurant selection was narrowed greatly.  We decided to enjoy Seasons 52, if you haven't had an opportunity GO!  They change their menu with the seasons, nothing on the menu is over 475 calories and they don't cook with butter.  The food is amazing.  So I scoured the menu, asked my server multiple questions (lucky me I'm friends with the server).  I ordered and was excited to be enjoying yummy food and obeying my Whole30 guidelines.  Yeah that was short lived.  The food arrives and it looks great!  I then took a bite of the slaw and that is when I tasted it....sugar!!!!  There was a sauce used as a garnish and I didn't see it because of the way the food was plated and the dining room has romantic lighting.  So I sat there beating myself up and trying to figure out how I could possibly start the Whole30 over the next day.  I wasn't worried about getting through the 30 days themselves, my problem was what would be transpiring during this particular 30 days.  I was discussing my dilemma with Wayne and he brought up a very good point.  I will never been at this part of my life again.  We are getting married and there are events leading up to the wedding day that he doesn't want me to miss out enjoying.  So I am continuing with the Whole30 guidelines, except when I have a bridal shower for example.  This is actually harder for me than the 11 days I fulled with the Whole30.  It is harder because it is all on me, it isn't just a contracted amount of time.  I'm sorry to anyone I have disappointed.  I will say that I am grateful for the Whole30 and I saw an improvement with the changing of my eating habits and I will continue to eat this way the majority of the time.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Whole30 Day 6 Super Duper Yummy Breakfast!

I decided to participate in the Whole30, and seeing that it is after midnight I just completed day 6! Woo Hoo!  To be honest it hasn't been that hard since I have items in my fridge to throw together.  Wayne and I were talking about it today and I told him I'm surprised I have made it this far.  He started laughing and complimented me on keeping with it, especially with all the temptation.  There was a plate of Hershey Kisses on the coffee table.  I signed up for the Whole30, not Wayne and not my roommate.  So I have not gone through the house and thrown everything away that has sugar, dairy, grains, legumes in it and I haven't thrown away the processed foods either.

Friday night for instance I made a Whole30 compliant dinner including a yummy avocado dressing.  However there is an avocado dressing I made for Wayne before that has Greek yogurt (I admit is out of this world delicious).  So I made that for him.  For last night's dinner (Saturday night) I made a Chocolate Chili (Whole30 approved) and I ate that with some cauliflower, olives and onions & my dressing.  While Wayne ate some jalapeno cheddar sausages he grilled.  Some he topped with the chili and some with the Greek yogurt avocado dressing.

OKAY I have to tell you about breakfast!  It was YUMMY!  However I have to make a confession, I totally stalked Hannah's blog, Shanks for the Memories to find the recipe.  I posted a question on my Facebook asking if anyone had done the Whole30 and Hannah said she had.  Well I thought to myself that she is a way better blogger than I am and I bet she blogged about it and SHE DID!  It was encouraging to read a blog by someone I know who has done the Whole30 because it made it more attainable to me.  If that sounds weird, I'm okay with that...I'm weird!  Anyways she posted a Breakfast Egg Casserole Recipe and I thought I'm going to try that.  Now I did make the sausage but I used ground beef because that is what I had and I substitute mushrooms for the zucchini.  I told Wayne that I have made a couple different breakfast casseroles in my day, but they have either had milk or cheese or both in them.  With this casserole I don't miss them!  Truth be told I am looking forward to breakfast in seven hours.  Try it, you will thank me later!

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Baby I'm back!

Dude I have not posted in months!  Well I blame Wayne ;)  Who is Wayne you may ask?  He is the amazing man that I am marrying in 44 days!!!!  It has been a whirlwind for sure!
  • On January 18, 2013 God brought him to my doorstep.  I was hosting a movie night for the Singles Sunday School Class and someone invited him.
  • January 27, 2013 he asked me out to dinner.  I was super nervous!
  • February 6th we went on our first date to Cafe Trio.  He gave me Christopher Elbow Drinking Chocolate as a gift!  The guy is smart!
  • March 4th we made it official as boyfriend and girlfriend.
  • March 27th he PROPOSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • November 2, 2013 is our Wedding Day!
God has blessed me with a man of prayer!  He loves the Lord and has a desire to love me like Christ loves the Church.  I had no idea what it felt like to be cherished and cared for.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Day 41 - Afternoon Acts of Kindness

"Teach me your way, Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name.  I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever."  Psalm 86: 11-12

Thought for the Day:  What if I could be courageous enough to act and react like a complete person - a Jesus girl who is filled, sustained, and directed by God's joy?

Dear Lord, I want to be courageous enough to act and react like a complete person today.  Please help me to see areas where I need to change and grow.  I desire to crave You and Your truths more than anything else because You are the ultimate filler of my heart.  In Jesus' name.  Amen.

Today's Made to Crave Devotional, Lysa was talking about how instead of turning to a snack when someone says something ridiculous to her, that she prays for the Lord to place someone on her heart to encourage.  This reminded me of something Beth Moore said about the power of acknowledgement.  What that means is acknowledging someone's presence.  For example I try to interact with the cashier and ask them about their day.  It is amazing what that can do to someone's day.  I know that not by them telling me, but by the fact that I know how it feels to feel ignored, & looked over.